Architect In Training

I have two things to say about that Mike Posner song Speed of Sound:
1.Best Riding and Thinking Song I have right now [in conjunction with Cudi - Hyeer]
2. Each verse is the story of my life right now before you get to the chorus because the chorus symbolizes the success coming.

I been listening to this all day [and I do mean ALL day], and it makes reflect on everything that has happened in the past year.  Each verse makes me think about a different part of life in the past year.  For example:

'My mom keeps telling me, that I better stay in school.  But when that ends, Lord knows I don't know what I'm gonna do.'
-- I still don't know what I'm going to do.  I been trying to figure this thing called life out non-stop since then and I haven't come up with much.  Searching for that ever elusive job in this economy has been hard to say the very least.  Honestly, that is an understatement.  I been looking like a mad man eversince I came back from Spain but still nothing.  I feel like I'm just spinning my tires on ice - getting me nowhere.  And what did I go to school all this time for?!  I got two degrees in what I thought was a professional career path and the only thing I find in my pockets is lint, hope, and business cards.

'Cuz everytime I blink now, another day rolls by.  It's getting hard to not think bout all the things on my mind.  Like I remember this time last year, I was alone. I felt like I was two feet tall.'
-- I'm not going to go into all the details of this one but know it's very pertinent to my life.  But what I will say is that everyday seems to go by SO fast now and I wish it would slow down because I don't feel like I'm enjoying them like they should be.  

'My friends keep telling me how much they believe in me.  Well i wish, that i saw, the things that they see in me'
-- Now I'm not down on myself but I wish I just could utilize the talents that my friends and family see in a way that would accrue some kind of recognition and income.  I think one of my biggest fears is not making some kind of difference and the fact that I don't see anything of substance being done by or in conjunction with me eats away at me.  I don't feel successful.  As much as people tell me I am, the bank statement isn't telling the same story.  I just want to contribute to something ASAP.  I'm just trying to move at the Speed of Sound.  Trying to be Gone In 60 Seconds on Talledega Nights.  Get some more passport stamps.  That so wrong?  Who trying to help?  Let me know something.  Anybody....

Thomas Bowman Out.